| i really do miss xanga. people type stuff on their xangas randomly from time to time sayin they're bringing xanga back. who are they kidding really.
facebook has taken over. and i'm ok with it. it's a truly superior networking tool. and in the end that's what these sites were created for. and it has covered it's bases pretty well. i have a hard time imaging anyone ever growing out of facebook and social networking. we are human and we are a social creature. we have just now been connected to each other forever.
but seriously, i remember good ol blogs on xanga about people's day. now everyone wants an easier, abbreviated version.
the people are pleased.
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| I've come to the realization that I have commitment issues.
Pause.
Now that I've caught up with everyone, let's move on.
I can't seem to settle. I guess it's normal for my age. But I feel like I have a specific problem. If I like a girl, I can't put myself up to say, that's who I want to be with. I have problems. Because I'm scared if I take a chance with her that I'll miss this thing with the girl over there.
I have these tendencies. Thanh knows what kind of tendencies these are.
I already messed up things with a girl I really loved because I have problems. I just don't feel like I could put anyone through that emotional stress again. I'm very motivated from things I've done in my past. I try my best to learn from them and never do them again if they're wrong.
I'm messed up. Or probably just normal but it doesn't feel good to be like this. I don't think I'd be fair to any girl I'll be with for awhile.
But Kim, Thanh's sister, told me I just can't go into relationships with my mindset.
Relationships are interesting. |
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| Talking to Michelle is interesting.
When I talk to her it feels like I'm communicating to a great friend who I care for and love.
But it also feels like we have to butt heads a little to do it.
Somehow the conversation becomes life and goal oriented and how wasteful of a talent I am.
I've come to liken myself as a first round draft pick. This guy has all the talent in the world and so much potential. But in a few years if he doesn't prove himself for that high draft choice, they label him as a bust.
Am I a bust?
Maybe.
Probably.
But then again, I get this same mentality. Things I say I feel like I have to reanalyze it to make sure people KNOW that I KNOW what I'm saying.
People in this world are strange. So am I. See after I typed the first sentence I realized I have to put in that second sentence. Crazy.
I love my friends. I love my family.
In the end that's all I know. I'm a go with the flow, laid back guy. In the end, you view it how it is. Either I'm lazy or I'm chill.
Either way is fine with me because you're probably right. |
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| I've started reading the Houston Press. I like it. I want to read more alternative papers. I thought this was funny.
Best Place to Meet Single Women (2007)
Whole Foods, several locations
Whole Foods [Map]
2955 Kirby
Houston, TX 77098
713-520-1937
http://www.wholefoods.com
Readers' Choice: Pub Fiction
Here's the trick: Just walk in, grab a cart, stroll over to the book aisle and pick a diet, any diet. Let's say you go with the Master Cleanse. Fill up your cart with all the ingredients except one, like, say, maple syrup. Walk up to the first hottie you see — and there should be plenty to choose from — and ask her if she knows where the syrup is. She'll no doubt look down at your cart and recognize the diet you're on, since she's done them all. And voilà, you're instantly in the middle of a conversation, discussing the merits of wheat grass or some other hippie concoction. Closing the deal is up to you. But if you succeed, you can rest assured she's flexible from all that yoga. |
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| I'm happy that Keith is back home from Cambodia.
I'm a little frustrated about my friend situation. I just feel like I've been cut out a little bit. Maybe it's just me but that's just how I feel. It scares me to lose people that I care deeply about. Little ticky tack things bother me because I feel like it's some sort of sign that "Hey I'm not invited or welcome anymore". I don't know what it is. Or maybe I'm just paranoid. It's just, you spend months building what you feel is to be a better and stronger friendship than before only to have it all go back to how it was before. I hang out with my youth and you hang out with your youth. It's fine and probably in the end just good to be that way. Anyway and maybe it's to restrengthen a youth that is devastated by either non shows to church, people going to school out of Houston, or people simply being out of the country. I just don't want to sever any close bonds I've made leading up until this point. Is that foolish to think? Nothing can replace the family I already have and I'm not suggesting that they should or will but I would like them to just join in on being my permanent family.
I know one PAson knows what I'm saying.
And he'll probably leave a comment. He still treats me like the family I had before even though I read but don't comment on his. |
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